This Might be a Year (or two) Late
DJ Martin
“I’m never getting old”
“Me neither”
These lines came from
the TV Series Thirteen Reasons Why which
I believe [from] Season 1 Episode 9 around 30 minutes or so. Of all the strong
lines that gave a striking message, or produced quality content that of a
series, these two struck me most. It’s really simple. It’s just six words
separated in two phrases coming from Clay Jensen and Hannah Baker. It came to
me that as I was finishing this series how serious small situations, sometimes not
even harmful at all, can construct bigger and much heavier effects that fucks
(sorry for the language) everything up. I never finished it yet—I procrastinated
(in terms of watching this series) for about half a year and I am already
outdated with the second season already coming out (or probably is already out)
What pushed me to write
this without even finishing the episode is very simple. I knew what Clay meant
and it didn’t even occur to me that such line is becoming an unspoken mantra of
mine. No one ever wants to get old yet no one ever stays young. I think I get
what he meant in that exact line considering what was happening to him as the
episodes progress. For all those who already watched the show, it’s pretty
clear that the happenings speak a strong language that sends a message on how
depression may kill. But with this essay, I won’t tackle much about that. I
particularly would like to address how Clay wants to portray whatever is or was
going on in his mind. He was either honest or sarcastic when he said that yet he
never wanted to change even though he knew for a fact he’ll be old. On a deeper
aspect, he does not want to forget what happened to Hannah unlike all the other
students who listened to the tapes
and what’s worse was he almost didn’t realize that he is getting old—all the
circumstances were pushing him to move
on. He deemed himself useless and seeing the world like shit coming out
because of a cesspool of idiot high-school students who are either
self-centered or just indifferent or worse, both. I just realized in the
weirdest way that life can be self-centered or indifferent or even be both but
in a perspective where no one wins because everyone has a point. In the saddest
way, we either want to leave it or live it. We don’t want to get old but sometimes as we say that
line, we don’t realize we already are. We are already there and we choose to
ignore, we choose to not choose.
Maybe I never watched
enough episodes or maybe I haven’t watched anything yet. Let’s see on a more
profound essay.
Thank you for reading!